Luca

[RealPitBull]

Yesterday I made the decision to let Luca go. He was ready and went very peacefully. He was 15 years old, and has been with me since he was 10 weeks. Now I have to relearn how to live without my little muffin by my side.

Right now I can't really talk about it, but I thought you all should know.

[catstina]

Mary, I am so very sorry. Luca was a gorgeous, handsome man and he was lucky to end up with as amazing a person as you. You were there for him right to the end and he will always be with you. Rest well, sweet Luca. Please know, Mary, that we are all here for you.

[loverocksalot]

Oh Mary, Somehow I knew when I saw his name listed on the thread that this is what I was about to read. The first words on the thread and I am crying like a baby. Never even met Luca but can only imagine what you might be going through. Hugs and love from Us.

[Dave]

Luca was a good boy, and loved you very much. I'm glad I had the chance to meet him. You're in my thoughts, Mary.

[suziriot]

Oh Mary, I am so so sorry. We lose our beloved friends much too soon. As Cat said, he will always be with you in your heart and he was so well loved.

[Dave]

Mary, I always l found comfort in this poem by Mary Elizabeth Frye, I hope you do, too.

Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am the diamond glints on snow;
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft star that shines at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there, I did not die.

[emilys]

oh I am so sorry Mary...... rest in peace, sweet Luca.

[perseus]

I am sorry for your loss - my thoughts are with you.

[AmyJo27]

Mary so sorry for your loss. Lots of thoughts and positive energy headed your way. Rip sweet boy.

[sugar]

Oh my, I feel like saying how sorry I am seems woefully inadequate to even begin to explain just how deeply I feel your pain. You gave him the best life a dog could ever want and you loved him with more than just all of your heart, you loved him with all of your soul.

My deepest sympathies.

[zaeva06]

May you be at peace Luca.

[maryellen]

i am so sorry Mary, you gave him a wonderful life of love and he will always be with you.. you might not be able to see him, but he will always be by your side. Hugs to you from me

[melonie]

Oh Mary I'm so sorry.

It's been a tough year in the RPB world.

[adoptapitbull]

Love you, Mary. We are all here for you!

[RealPitBull]

Thank you everyone so much for your kind words and support, here and on Facebook. To know I'm not alone in this makes it so much more bearable.

It's been really hard, I mean, it's only been two days but I keep walking into the kitchen where Luca's bed and bowls were and thinking he's in there or thinking I hear him in the other room, and every time it's like I have to re-establish in my head, "Oh....he's not here anymore".

I know I did the right thing, if anything I feel maybe I waited TOO long, but I just wasn't sure until this past weekend. I set up a little area in the living room with his baby portrait, his one and only BOB ribbon (little rebel dog, not about the show thing...), his fleece, his collar and leash, a little wooden box with some of his fur in it, and his bowls, along with a candle. And now I'm just waiting for his ashes. I think I will feel better once the ashes come home.

He was such a wonderful, sweet, kind dog. I thought I would want to get another fairly soon, but now that Luca is gone, I just cannot even imagine bringin another dog home. It is an odd feeling, something I've never experienced before (my dogs have always been toggled, one would go, I'd have another (or 5) at home and then I'd bring a newbie in. But now...it's like....what's the point? A new dog won't be Luca. I know this is all just part of grieving. But I'm pretty broken over this.

Ok, I'm totally running my typing fingers. I haven't really talked at all about this, so I suppose I needed to get some stuff out.

[Dave]

It takes time, sometimes lots of it. Luca was very special.

And yeah, you have lots of support. Of course, you know where to get a furry fix if you need it.

[suziriot]

Oct 25, 2012 8:47:40 GMT -5 RealPitBull said:

Thank you everyone so much for your kind words and support, here and on Facebook. To know I'm not alone in this makes it so much more bearable.

It's been really hard, I mean, it's only been two days but I keep walking into the kitchen where Luca's bed and bowls were and thinking he's in there or thinking I hear him in the other room, and every time it's like I have to re-establish in my head, "Oh....he's not here anymore".

I know I did the right thing, if anything I feel maybe I waited TOO long, but I just wasn't sure until this past weekend. I set up a little area in the living room with his baby portrait, his one and only BOB ribbon (little rebel dog, not about the show thing...), his fleece, his collar and leash, a little wooden box with some of his fur in it, and his bowls, along with a candle. And now I'm just waiting for his ashes. I think I will feel better once the ashes come home.

He was such a wonderful, sweet, kind dog. I thought I would want to get another fairly soon, but now that Luca is gone, I just cannot even imagine bringin another dog home. It is an odd feeling, something I've never experienced before (my dogs have always been toggled, one would go, I'd have another (or 5) at home and then I'd bring a newbie in. But now...it's like....what's the point? A new dog won't be Luca. I know this is all just part of grieving. But I'm pretty broken over this.

I was about to write a long long post, but I got too upset... and that's not the energy you need right now. So I'll just say - and I know you already know this - grieve in whatever way works for you and take care of yourself. Don't feel that you should or should not bring a dog into your home. You will know when you're ready, whether that's next week or next year.

[marc]

So sorry to hear that. 15yrs is a lifetime, I lost my first after 14.

Hope you feel better soon!

[mayhemkb]

My deepest sympathies.

[maryellen]

i am sure Luca will steer your next dog to you ... grieve the way you want, you did the right thing, and he is not in pain anymore.. and if you feel him there he IS there.. you might not see him, but he is there just in another form watching out over you..