Post by AmyJo27 on Sept 30, 2011 10:36:30 GMT -5
Well, I guess its time for me to vent a little. This weeks got me going…need to get some things out! And if none of this makes sense to anyone else, and I look like a bitch…I guess I feel better. :/
This week started with men peeking in our windows and now it ends with my family harping on me about how I need to change because ‘no one’ likes me.
Plain and simple, Im like the little black sheep of the family. I was born and raised in a teeny tiny town…Everyone THINKS they know everything. My family (Gmas, aunts, mom, cousins, everyone) bases everything they do on what others will think and say. Im opposite…I think it’s a waste of my energy to smile and wave at someone then when they walk away comment on how much you cant stand them…If you dislike them so dam much…Why waste YOUR time, Your energy and pretend?! Seems pointless …
ME…I could give a shit less what the person in the grocery store thinks, or the person three houses down thinks. This KILLS my family. My mom came into my work CRYING yesterday because my grandma was upset because someone in church made a comment to her about me being with a Hispanic and having kids young. Umm ok…Id say the woman needs to get a life and not worry about mine and leave it at that but this put my mother out of commission (which annoyed me even more—Love her to death but come on!)
I admit…..do state my mind…If someone pisses me off Im not going to shrug it off and pretend (Unless I have to) then let it eat me up all night like my family does. There are some things in my mind that are worth stating …If someone budges in line at a store, Really? Who gives a shit…Im seriously not THAT big of a bitch but there are some things that I am not going to put my tail between my legs and walk away from… You can call me what you want but once you involve my family…Its on!....For example….At my daughters daycare (Shes 2) I walked in on an employee telling the 2 year olds to shut their mouths OR ELSE. Instantly I was fuming….I told her “They are not 10 they are 2!” along with a couple other little ear friendly comments. Avery is 2…Im her mother…If I don’t stick up for her, who is?! But, This spread around the town like wild fire…NOT about this woman treating children poorly but about me being a bitch. So now, half my family is mad at me but shit, when are they happy?!
And the comment on ‘no one’ liking me…Shit- I have Kris (I think he likes me most of the time), I have Avery, I have Bola and Honey, and I have a couple REALLY close good friends. And most importantly, I like myself so why should I care about all these other people that are somebodys to somebody but nobodys to me?!?!
Times like this makes me slightly miss living in California…This is part of what got me there. HATE small towns.
.................Ahhh…That feels better!
This week started with men peeking in our windows and now it ends with my family harping on me about how I need to change because ‘no one’ likes me.
Plain and simple, Im like the little black sheep of the family. I was born and raised in a teeny tiny town…Everyone THINKS they know everything. My family (Gmas, aunts, mom, cousins, everyone) bases everything they do on what others will think and say. Im opposite…I think it’s a waste of my energy to smile and wave at someone then when they walk away comment on how much you cant stand them…If you dislike them so dam much…Why waste YOUR time, Your energy and pretend?! Seems pointless …
ME…I could give a shit less what the person in the grocery store thinks, or the person three houses down thinks. This KILLS my family. My mom came into my work CRYING yesterday because my grandma was upset because someone in church made a comment to her about me being with a Hispanic and having kids young. Umm ok…Id say the woman needs to get a life and not worry about mine and leave it at that but this put my mother out of commission (which annoyed me even more—Love her to death but come on!)
I admit…..do state my mind…If someone pisses me off Im not going to shrug it off and pretend (Unless I have to) then let it eat me up all night like my family does. There are some things in my mind that are worth stating …If someone budges in line at a store, Really? Who gives a shit…Im seriously not THAT big of a bitch but there are some things that I am not going to put my tail between my legs and walk away from… You can call me what you want but once you involve my family…Its on!....For example….At my daughters daycare (Shes 2) I walked in on an employee telling the 2 year olds to shut their mouths OR ELSE. Instantly I was fuming….I told her “They are not 10 they are 2!” along with a couple other little ear friendly comments. Avery is 2…Im her mother…If I don’t stick up for her, who is?! But, This spread around the town like wild fire…NOT about this woman treating children poorly but about me being a bitch. So now, half my family is mad at me but shit, when are they happy?!
And the comment on ‘no one’ liking me…Shit- I have Kris (I think he likes me most of the time), I have Avery, I have Bola and Honey, and I have a couple REALLY close good friends. And most importantly, I like myself so why should I care about all these other people that are somebodys to somebody but nobodys to me?!?!
Times like this makes me slightly miss living in California…This is part of what got me there. HATE small towns.
.................Ahhh…That feels better!